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Erase Porn – The Best Approach to Erase Porn!

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Still, I have found porn hard to resist at times. It seemed strongest when I was feeling anxious, lonely, or depressed. Why shouldn’t I indulge in certain fantasy experience of a beautiful, willing woman with no demands or responsibilities? What’s the harm? But when it had been over and I was wiping up the outcomes, I’d made no progress with whatever was bothering me. I don’t want to consider just how much of my entire life has been wasted in mindless unproductive activity watching porn. So why did I continue back to it?

As a teen, porn was an exciting way to find a forbidden topic. Later, when my first marriage was failing and my business heading down the tubes, I indulged in porn as a temporary escape. During the lonely years after the divorce, I used porn as a cream for loneliness and depression. All of the made some kind of sense, but after Victoria moved in with me, I was still drawn to look at porn although it upset her. How could I sound right of that? Now I had a solid reason to give up, but I was hooked on porn.

In attempting to understand just why I was hooked, I ran across most of the lame reasons: “that’s just just how men are,” “men tend to be more visually oriented than women,” and “it’s a method to satisfy the male instinct to spread his seed.” And there were plenty of excuses too: “I’m not hurting anyone,” “it’s nothing to do with you, Sweetie,” and “at least I’m not out chasing other women.”

Nothing seemed to create sense to me until I found this simple explanation: porn is a strategy to meet up some deep need within me. The essential theory is that actions are motivated by attempts to meet basic human needs. A simple example: a simple need is shelter; as a caveman, I would find a cave; as a professional, I would rent an apartment. But we are not simple creatures; often meeting one need means not meeting another. The caveman could have to sleep in the open to follow his food source. The young professional may need to decide between the nice apartment and sharing a residence as a result of limited funds. Essentially they both have to find new strategies to generally meet their significance of shelter.

Watching porn is really a way of meeting some basic needs. After much self-examination, I believe it is intimacy without fear that I am attempting to find. Of course, it is just a facsimile of intimacy when comparing to true intimacy with a genuine woman, but I’m only now beginning to understand what it may be like to truly have a relationship without fear. Throughout nearly all of my entire life I kept a particular reserve, avoiding the danger of letting someone know the actual me. Sexual intimacy was a very diaper porn, and easy – even affection was easy. But opening up? Showing a lady my deepest self? Not a chance. What if she didn’t like me? What if she rejected me? Imagine if I wasn’t good enough? Learning a female was always exciting at the start – maybe she was usually the one who’d accept me as I was. What I didn’t realize was that there wasn’t an opportunity anyone could really accept me if I didn’t ever open up. Eventually, the excitement died and we drifted apart for whatever reason was handy.

This cycle was destructive, and deeply unsatisfying. I’ve always wanted someone I possibly could feel safe with, with whom I could let it go and be me without fear of being rejected, but real women weren’t filling that want – through no fault of theirs. The closest thing I found was porn. With porn there clearly was no worry that she’d leave me or that I wasn’t good enough. The images were always ready when I wanted them and willing to play whatever role I wanted.